Not a panic attack exactly, more like a spin, a particular condition that surfaced some fourteen years ago, where I suddenly feel as though I’m on a whirring merry-go-round that has just been unplugged mid-ride. It’s like I’m gradually slowing to a stop, the silence between my heart’s weakening beats stretching longer and longer, as I skate the last loops of my life.

Luckiest Girl Alive

Jessica Knoll


I began to think vodka was my drink at last. It didn’t taste like anything, but it went straight down into my stomach like a sword swallower’s sword and made me feel powerful and godlike.

Sylvia PlathThe Bell Jar

well, vodka is my favorite too (ff)

The best books, they don’t talk about things you never thought about before. They talk about things you’d always thought about, but that you didn’t think anyone else had thought about. You read them, and suddenly you’re a little bit less alone in the world. You’re part of this cosmic community of people who’ve thought about this thing, whatever it happens to be.

Tommy Wallach, We All Looked Up (via quoted-books)

Dark as the midnight hour
or bright as the mornin’ sun

Give a fuck about your complexion,
I know what the Germans done

Sneak (dissin’)
Sneak me through the back window, I’m a good field nigga

I made a flower for you outta cotton just to chill with you

You know I’d go the distance,
you know I’m ten toes down

Even if master listenin’, cover your ears, he ‘bout to mention

Kendrick Lamar